Month: December 2016

Alone I Break

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I will make it go away
Can’t be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn’t seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I’m running from?
Is there nothing more to come?
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to leave this race?
I guess god’s up in this place?
What is it that I’ve become?
Is there something more to come?

Coming Undone

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Keep holding on
When my brain’s tickin’ like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don’t affect me

That’s right
Deliver it to my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate

Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They’re out to get me
Since I was young
I’ve tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet sugar gun
Does not protect me

That’s right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

Wait
I’m coming undone
Irate
I’m coming undone
Too late
I’m coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I’m starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I’m coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

I’m trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like I’m not getting better
Not getting better

Wait
I’m coming undone
Irate
I’m coming undone
Too late
I’m coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I’m starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I’m coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate …

Inhale

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Come one and all and see the broken man, talking to himself
He sits and waits for something better, he’ll never find it here
The people touch his hair and pinch his cheek; he can’t even feel it
There it goes again, he’s listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is…

Why does any of it matter? I can’t take it anymore
You’ve gotta try the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

He wipes his hands on anything in reach, he never feels clean
He shakes at night because his nerve is gone, every muscle hurts
Come one and all and see what happened…that broken man is me
There it goes again, I can hear it louder
It doesn’t feel good anymore
All I want to know is…

Why does any of it matter? I can’t take it anymore
You’ve gotta try the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

NOW I KNOW I DISAPPEAR!
I CAN’T FIND MY WAY FROM OUT OF HERE!
EVERYTHING IS FADING ON ME!
SOMEONE TELL ME… someone tell me…
Someone tell me

Why does any of it matter? I can’t take it anymore
You’ve gotta try the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

WHY?! YOU’VE GOTTA TRY!

Wait and Bleed

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I’ve felt the hate rise up in me…
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves…
I wander out where you can’t see…
Inside my shell I wait and bleed…

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I can’t control my shakes
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong…
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn’t like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I’ve felt the hate rise up in me…
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves…
I wander out where you can’t see…
Inside my shell I wait and bleed…