Lay them all to waste
Years you’ve decided to erase
And cross off the days gone by…
Making my way back from the madness
Shooting my thoughts through the blackness
And the sadness, but the fact is
I’m shooting through words like a clenched fist
Fuck sanity, I wanna bleed
Can’t kill the pain
It’s everything
It’s all I feel
It’s what I breathe
Through the hate I breathe into what I need
Heavy is the hand that points the finger
Heavy is the heart that’s filled with anger
There’s no peace, only war
Victory decides who’s wrong or right
It will not cease, only grow
You better be prepared to fight
And it will not apologize
For laying down your life
There’s no pain it will spare
Fear has become your only right
And once you’re lost in your despair
Forever black eternal night
It needs no side to justify
Laying down your life
Nah, you don’t know me
Lightning above and a fire below me
You cannot catch me, cannot hold me
You cannot stop, much less control me
When it rains, it pours, when the floodgates open brace your shores
That pressure don’t care when it breaks your doors
Say it’s all you can take, better take some more
‘Cause I know what it’s like to test fate
Had my shoulders pressed with that weight
Stood up strong in spite of that hate
Night gets darkest right before dawn
What don’t kill you makes you more strong
And I’ve been waiting for it so long
The nights go on
Waiting for a light that never comes
I chase the sun
Waiting for a light that never comes
Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin’
It’s like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
‘Cause from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn’t realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
And now you’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you
Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin’
I see you n’ every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to ’em n’ everyday
I regret saying those things ’cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
And now you’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you
Never goes away
Never goes away
Never goes away
Never goes away
Get away from me
Give me my space back, you gotta just go
Everything comes down the memories of you
I kept it in without letting you know
I let you go, so get away from me
There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you when I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you’ve said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I could stand
So I’m waiting till the upper hand is mine
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you’ve won
And then it’s all gone
So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I am counting down the time
‘Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I could stand
So I’m waiting till the upper hand is mine
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you’ve won
And then it’s all gone
I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You realize you divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief, I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don’t stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief, I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don’t stay
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day, of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day, of you wasting me away
With no apologies…
I don’t know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between and how
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
‘Cause I swear for the last time, I won’t trust myself with you
Tension is building inside steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts forcing their way out of me
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between and how
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
‘Cause I swear for the last time, I won’t trust myself with you
I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it’s like no matter what I do, I can’t convince you
To just believe this is real
So, I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here ’cause you’re all that I’ve got
I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
‘Cause you don’t understand I do what I can
But sometimes I don’t make sense
I am, what you never want to say, but I’ve never had a doubt
It’s like no matter what I do, I can’t convince you for once just to hear me out
So, I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here ’cause you’re all that I’ve got
I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
You hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now
I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
I remembered black skies
The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide
There was nothing in sight
But memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide
In every loss, in every lie
In every truth that you’d deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve
So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide
Take me down to the river bend
Take me down to the fighting end
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again
Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black where the sirens sing
Warm me up in a nova’s glow
And drop me down to the dream below
Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again
wasted 