R.I.P.

Skinnyman

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My little girl, my little girl
My little girl, where are you?
My fucked up world, My fucked up world
My fucked up world destroyed you

Day after day, day after day
I get it now, I just go on without you
Twisted inside, six miles high
I rehearse how to say goodbye to you

Skinnyman
Turned into a monster
I’m a motherfucker

Wrap it up tight, wrap it up tight
Emotions are distorted
It’s no surprise, nothing alive
All hope has been aborted

Day after day, day after day
I get it now, I just go on without you
Twisted inside, six miles high
I rehearse how to say goodbye to you

Skinnyman
Turned into a monster
I’m a motherfucker
Inside I’m dead
All used up
God damn I miss her

As my skin turns yellow
I forget this hell
As the skies are bruised
And the rain comes down

As my face turns pale
Try to deal with these thoughts
At the end of it all
I still miss you

Cross Off

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Lay them all to waste
Years you’ve decided to erase
And cross off the days gone by…

Making my way back from the madness
Shooting my thoughts through the blackness
And the sadness, but the fact is
I’m shooting through words like a clenched fist
Fuck sanity, I wanna bleed
Can’t kill the pain
It’s everything
It’s all I feel
It’s what I breathe
Through the hate I breathe into what I need

Heavy is the hand that points the finger
Heavy is the heart that’s filled with anger

Collision Course

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There’s no peace, only war
Victory decides who’s wrong or right
It will not cease, only grow
You better be prepared to fight

And it will not apologize
For laying down your life

There’s no pain it will spare
Fear has become your only right
And once you’re lost in your despair
Forever black eternal night

It needs no side to justify
Laying down your life

A Light That Never Comes

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Nah, you don’t know me
Lightning above and a fire below me
You cannot catch me, cannot hold me
You cannot stop, much less control me
When it rains, it pours, when the floodgates open brace your shores
That pressure don’t care when it breaks your doors
Say it’s all you can take, better take some more

‘Cause I know what it’s like to test fate
Had my shoulders pressed with that weight
Stood up strong in spite of that hate

Night gets darkest right before dawn
What don’t kill you makes you more strong
And I’ve been waiting for it so long

The nights go on
Waiting for a light that never comes
I chase the sun
Waiting for a light that never comes

Figure.09

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Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin’
It’s like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again

‘Cause from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn’t realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

And now you’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin’
I see you n’ every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them

And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to ’em n’ everyday
I regret saying those things ’cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

And now you’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from what I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Never goes away
Never goes away
Never goes away
Never goes away
Get away from me

Give me my space back, you gotta just go
Everything comes down the memories of you
I kept it in without letting you know
I let you go, so get away from me

Hit the Floor

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There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you when I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you’ve said about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I could stand
So I’m waiting till the upper hand is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you’ve won
And then it’s all gone

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I am counting down the time
‘Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you, it’s about as much as I could stand
So I’m waiting till the upper hand is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you’ve won
And then it’s all gone

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You realize you divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

Don’t Stay

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Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief, I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don’t stay

Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief, I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don’t stay

Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don’t stay

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day, of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day, of you wasting me away
With no apologies…

From the Inside

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I don’t know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between and how
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
‘Cause I swear for the last time, I won’t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts forcing their way out of me
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between and how
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
‘Cause I swear for the last time, I won’t trust myself with you

Faint

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I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it’s like no matter what I do, I can’t convince you
To just believe this is real
So, I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here ’cause you’re all that I’ve got

I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored

I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
‘Cause you don’t understand I do what I can
But sometimes I don’t make sense
I am, what you never want to say, but I’ve never had a doubt
It’s like no matter what I do, I can’t convince you for once just to hear me out
So, I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here ’cause you’re all that I’ve got

I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored

You hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now, hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can’t feel the way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal this damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignored