Waiting for the End

This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
And though the words sound steady, something empty’s within ’em

We say yeah! With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
‘Cause we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we get, forget it, let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I’ve said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got
I’m Holding on to what I haven’t got
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sharp Edges

Mama always told me don’t you run
Don’t you run with scissors, son
You’re gonna hurt someone
Mama told me look before you leap
Always think before you speak
And watch the friends you keep
Stay along the beaten path
Never listened when she said…

Sharp edges have consequences, I
Guess that I had to find out for myself
Sharp edges have consequences, now
Every scar is a story I can tell

Should’ve played it safer from the start
Loved you like a house of cards
I let it fall apart
But all the things I couldn’t understand
And never could’ve planned
They made me who I am

Put your nose in paperbacks
Instead of smoking cigarettes
These are years you’re never getting back
Stay along the beaten path
I never listened when she said…

Sharp edges have consequences, I
Guess that I had to find out for myself
Sharp edges have consequences, now
Every scar is a story I can tell

We all fall down, we live somehow
We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger
We all fall down, we live somehow
We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger

One More Light

Should’ve stayed. Were there signs I ignored?
Can I help you not to hurt anymore?
We saw brilliance when the world was asleep
There are things that we can have but can’t keep

If they say…

Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars?
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out
If a moment is all we are?
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well, I do

P.S. For twelve years now, your soothing voice was a consolation to my pain, and your screaming calmed my raging soul. You’ve left behind so many reasons to be missed, and you’re always in our memory. Rest in peace, and leave out all the rest.

I’ll Be Gone

Like shining oil this night is dripping down
Stars are slipping down, glistening
And I’m trying not to think what I’m leaving now
No deceiving now
It’s time you let me know
Let me know

When the lights go out and we open our eyes
Out there in the silence, I’ll be gone
Let the sun fade out and another one rise
Climbing through tomorrow, I’ll be gone

This air between us is getting thinner now
Into winter now, bittersweet
And ‘cross that horizon this sun is setting down
You’re forgetting now
It’s time you let me go
Let me go

When the lights go out and we open our eyes
Out there in the silence, I’ll be gone
Let the sun fade out and another one rise
Climbing through tomorrow, I’ll be gone

And tell them I couldn’t help myself
And tell them I was alone
Oh, tell me I am the only one
And there’s nothing that can stop me

I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone

When They Come for Me

I am not a pattern to be followed
The pill that I’m on is a tough one to swallow
I’m not a criminal, not a role model
Not a born leader, I’m a tough act to follow
I am not the fortune and the fame
Or the same person telling you to forfeit the game
I came in the ring like a dog on a chain
And then found out the underbelly’s sicker than it seems
And it seems ugly but it can get worse
‘Cause even a blueprint is a gift and a curse
‘Cause once you got a theory of how the thing works
Everybody wants the next thing to be just like the first
And I’m not a robot, I’m not a monkey
I will not dance even if the beat’s funky
Opposite of lazy, far from a punk
Ya’ll oughta stop talking
Start trying to catch up, motherfucker

Lauryn said money change the situation
Big said it increase the complication
Kane said don’t step, I ain’t the one
Chuck said an Uzi weigh a motherfucking ton
And I’m just a student of the game that they taught me
Rocking every stage and every place that they brought me
I’m awfully underrated but came here to correct it
And so it ain’t mistaken, I’mma say it for the record
I am the opposite of wack, opposite of weak
Opposite of slack, synonym of heat, synonym of crack
Closest to a peak, far from a punk
Ya’ll oughta stop talking
Start trying to catch up, motherfucker

Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone
Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone
Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone

Battle Symphony

I got a long way to go and a long memory
I’ve been searching for an answer, always just out of reach
Blood on the floor, sirens repeat
I’ve been searching for the courage to face my enemies

When they turn down the lights
I hear my battle symphony
All the world in front of me
If my armor breaks
I’ll fuse it back together
Battle symphony
Please just don’t give up on me
And my eyes are wide awake

They say that I don’t belong, say that I should retreat
That I’m marching to the rhythm of a lonesome defeat
But the sound of your voice puts the pain in reverse
No surrender, no illusions, and for better or worse

When they turn down the lights
I hear my battle symphony
All the world in front of me
If my armor breaks
I’ll fuse it back together
Battle symphony
Please just don’t give up on me
And my eyes are wide awake

Good Goodbye

Live from the rhythm, it’s
Something wild, venomous
Enemies trying to read me
You’re all looking highly illiterate
Blindly forgetting if I’m in the mix
You won’t find an equivalent
I’ve been here killing it
Longer than you’ve been alive, you idiot
And it makes you so mad
Somebody else could be stepping in front of you
And it makes you so mad that you’re not the only one
There’s more than one of you
And you can’t understand the fact
That it’s over and done, hope you had fun
You’ve got a lot to discuss on the bus
Headed back where you’re from

So say goodbye and hit the road
Pack it up and disappear
You better have some place to go
‘Cause you can’t come back around here
Good goodbye

Burn It Down

The cycle repeated
As explosions broke in the sky
All that I needed
Was the one thing I couldn’t find
And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

We’re building it up
To break it back down
We’re building it up
To burn it down
We can’t wait
To burn it to the ground

The colors conflicted
As the flames climbed into the clouds
I wanted to fix this
But couldn’t stop from tearing it down
And you were there at the turn
Caught in the burning glow
And I was there at the turn
Waiting to let you know

We’re building it up
To break it back down
We’re building it up
To burn it down
We can’t wait
To burn it to the ground

Nobody Can Save Me

I’m dancing with my demons, I’m hanging off the edge
Storm clouds gather beneath me, waves break above my head
Headfirst hallucination, I wanna fall wide awake now

You tell me it’s alright, tell me I’m forgiven, tonight
But nobody can save me now
I’m holding up a light, chasing out the darkness inside
‘Cause nobody can save me

Stared into this illusion, for answers yet to come
I chose a false solution, but nobody proved me wrong, no
Headfirst hallucination, I wanna fall wide awake
Watch the ground giving way now

You tell me it’s alright, tell me I’m forgiven, tonight
But nobody can save me now
I’m holding up a light, I’m chasing out the darkness inside
‘Cause nobody can save me

Been searching somewhere out there, for what’s been missing right here
I wanna fall wide awake now
I’ve been searching somewhere out there, for what’s been missing right here
I wanna fall wide awake now

So tell me it’s alright, tell me I’m forgiven, tonight
And only I can save me now
I’m holding up a light, I’m chasing out the darkness inside
And I don’t wanna let you down, but only I can save me

Been searching somewhere out there
For what’s been missing right here

Heavy

I don’t like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there’s comfort in the panic
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything’s about me
Yeah I drive myself crazy
‘Cause I can’t escape the gravity…

I’m holding on. Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on to much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what’s bringing me down
If I just let go, I’d be set free
Holding on. Why is everything so heavy?