R.I.P.

New Divide

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I remembered black skies
The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight
But memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie
In every truth that you’d deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

Castle of Glass

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Take me down to the river bend
Take me down to the fighting end
Wash the poison from off my skin
Show me how to be whole again

Fly me up on a silver wing
Past the black where the sirens sing
Warm me up in a nova’s glow
And drop me down to the dream below

Bring me home in a blinding dream
Through the secrets that I have seen
Wash the sorrow from off my skin
And show me how to be whole again

Waiting for the End

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This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
And though the words sound steady, something empty’s within ’em

We say yeah! With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
‘Cause we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we get, forget it, let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I’ve said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got
I’m Holding on to what I haven’t got
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sharp Edges

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Mama always told me don’t you run
Don’t you run with scissors, son
You’re gonna hurt someone
Mama told me look before you leap
Always think before you speak
And watch the friends you keep
Stay along the beaten path
Never listened when she said…

Sharp edges have consequences, I
Guess that I had to find out for myself
Sharp edges have consequences, now
Every scar is a story I can tell

Should’ve played it safer from the start
Loved you like a house of cards
I let it fall apart
But all the things I couldn’t understand
And never could’ve planned
They made me who I am

Put your nose in paperbacks
Instead of smoking cigarettes
These are years you’re never getting back
Stay along the beaten path
I never listened when she said…

Sharp edges have consequences, I
Guess that I had to find out for myself
Sharp edges have consequences, now
Every scar is a story I can tell

We all fall down, we live somehow
We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger
We all fall down, we live somehow
We learn what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger

One More Light

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Should’ve stayed. Were there signs I ignored?
Can I help you not to hurt anymore?
We saw brilliance when the world was asleep
There are things that we can have but can’t keep

If they say…

Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars?
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out
If a moment is all we are?
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well, I do

P.S. For twelve years now, your soothing voice was a consolation to my pain, and your screaming calmed my raging soul. You’ve left behind so many reasons to be missed, and you’re always in our memory. Rest in peace, and leave out all the rest.

I’ll Be Gone

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Like shining oil this night is dripping down
Stars are slipping down, glistening
And I’m trying not to think what I’m leaving now
No deceiving now
It’s time you let me know
Let me know

When the lights go out and we open our eyes
Out there in the silence, I’ll be gone
Let the sun fade out and another one rise
Climbing through tomorrow, I’ll be gone

This air between us is getting thinner now
Into winter now, bittersweet
And ‘cross that horizon this sun is setting down
You’re forgetting now
It’s time you let me go
Let me go

When the lights go out and we open our eyes
Out there in the silence, I’ll be gone
Let the sun fade out and another one rise
Climbing through tomorrow, I’ll be gone

And tell them I couldn’t help myself
And tell them I was alone
Oh, tell me I am the only one
And there’s nothing that can stop me

I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone
I’ll be gone

When They Come for Me

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I am not a pattern to be followed
The pill that I’m on is a tough one to swallow
I’m not a criminal, not a role model
Not a born leader, I’m a tough act to follow
I am not the fortune and the fame
Or the same person telling you to forfeit the game
I came in the ring like a dog on a chain
And then found out the underbelly’s sicker than it seems
And it seems ugly but it can get worse
‘Cause even a blueprint is a gift and a curse
‘Cause once you got a theory of how the thing works
Everybody wants the next thing to be just like the first
And I’m not a robot, I’m not a monkey
I will not dance even if the beat’s funky
Opposite of lazy, far from a punk
Ya’ll oughta stop talking
Start trying to catch up, motherfucker

Lauryn said money change the situation
Big said it increase the complication
Kane said don’t step, I ain’t the one
Chuck said an Uzi weigh a motherfucking ton
And I’m just a student of the game that they taught me
Rocking every stage and every place that they brought me
I’m awfully underrated but came here to correct it
And so it ain’t mistaken, I’mma say it for the record
I am the opposite of wack, opposite of weak
Opposite of slack, synonym of heat, synonym of crack
Closest to a peak, far from a punk
Ya’ll oughta stop talking
Start trying to catch up, motherfucker

Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone
Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone
Oh, when they come for me
I’ll be gone

Stone Dead Forever

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You think you see me in the glass
You think you hear me, better listen fast
I think I see you, gone to seed
Think your reason is your guilt and greed

You’re out there on your own
Your face turned to stone
Whatever happened to your life
Stone dead forever

You’re a financial wizard, yeah, a top tycoon
You’re Sweet long lizard, with a silver spoon
You know you’ve never had it, quite so good
And you didn’t know that you even could

Your time has come to own
Your touch turned to gold
Whatever happened to your life
Stone dead forever

Battle Symphony

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I got a long way to go and a long memory
I’ve been searching for an answer, always just out of reach
Blood on the floor, sirens repeat
I’ve been searching for the courage to face my enemies

When they turn down the lights
I hear my battle symphony
All the world in front of me
If my armor breaks
I’ll fuse it back together
Battle symphony
Please just don’t give up on me
And my eyes are wide awake

They say that I don’t belong, say that I should retreat
That I’m marching to the rhythm of a lonesome defeat
But the sound of your voice puts the pain in reverse
No surrender, no illusions, and for better or worse

When they turn down the lights
I hear my battle symphony
All the world in front of me
If my armor breaks
I’ll fuse it back together
Battle symphony
Please just don’t give up on me
And my eyes are wide awake

Show Me How to Live

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In with the early dawn
Moving right along
I couldn’t buy an eye full of sleep
And in the aching night
Under sattelittes
I was not recieved
Built with the stolen parts
A telephone in my heart
Someone get me a priest
To put my mind to bed
This ringing in my head
Is this a cure or is this a disease

Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life now
Show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life now
Show me how to live

In the afterbirth
On the quiet earth
Let this things remind you
You thought you made a man
You better think again
Before my role defines you

Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me a life
Now show me how to live
Nail in my hand
From my creator
You gave me life now
Show me how to live